Well well... where to begin haha. The past little while I have kinda been struggling i had been dating a guy and i feel for him way to hard and WAY to fast. He was a great guy and i started thinking wow he might really be the one. (Believe me when i say i DON'T think this way). I looked forward to each day and what it would bring. I would go to bed at night excited to get up in the morning and go to work just cause i knew i would see him. It was fun! Life was great in my eyes! But like normal (with my dating life) all good things will come to an end haha. This kinda started my slump, first i started eating everything (not like me) and i didn't want to do anything i just got tired of it all. I kinda felt sorry for myself. My life felt very inadequate, and very unimportant. I mean what was i doing with life?? I felt like every ones life was progressing and mine has just stayed very constant. It took me a while but i felt like my old self again. Everything was great, not for any particular reason but we were all just having fun! This past week has been a little rocky. I finally broke down yesterday and thought "how am i going to do this??", "What am i going to do?" I felt very sorry for my self. (DON'T DO IT DOESN'T HELP).
I came to work this morning very down and discouraged. As I was sitting at my desk this darling couple walked in carrying there baby. She is probably a year old and is going through radiation. Then walked in a 20 year old boy that 5 days before he was to leave on his mission was diagnosed with cancer. The next patient to come in was also 20 and is going to be going to his first year of college in the fall, and he wants to have plastic surgery to cover the scars on his head. This is how the next hour continued. As i sat at my desk i started to cry and i thought " what do i have to complain about?" In that first hour of work i realized I have a wonderful life. I have so much to be grateful for! My health, family, friends, the gospel, my job, my country and so on. All our trials are different, and its how we chose to endure them. I don't know who said the quote but it said "don't endure, but endure well." And that's just what i need to do i have so much to be grateful for and i need to remember how blessed i am. The sun will come up tomorrow and life will continue to move forward. I need to trust in the lord. Life is wonderful and i am so grateful for who i am. Thank you for everyone who inspires me to be better.
“Anyone who imagines that bliss is normal is going to waste a lot of time running around shouting that he’s been robbed. The fact is that most putts don’t drop, most beef is tough, most children grow up to just be people, most successful marriages require a high degree of mutual toleration, most jobs are more often dull than otherwise. Life is like an old time rail journey…delays…sidetracks, smoke, dust, cinders and jolts, interspersed only occasionally by beautiful vistas and thrilling burst of speed. The trick is to thank the Lord for letting you have the ride.” ― Gordon B. Hinckley
